I DON'T CARE IF NOBODY EVER READS THIS: A BLOG ABOUT GOALS

In effort to motivate myself to keep pushing on with the development of these skills I asked myself on that first week of January how I could break my goal down into tangible steps (mini goals). The answer I came up with was to write 20 new pieces of content for my blog in 2021. I knew this would be a challenge but I also knew that if I managed to do it, I would feel a great sense of accomplishment. Even if I don't reach 20 blog posts, working towards that goal will yield more posts and thereby more experience in writing and putting myself out there than if I did not set this goal at all and so, I wrote it down in permanent ink on my goals list. Then, I proceeded to go right back to my old habits of obsessing over profectionism and procrastinating (insert hand on face emoji).

In all fairness, I was dealing with a lot and needed some time to step back at take a little self care. Nevertheless, I did manage to publish one blog post in February and then in perfect perfectionistic fashion put roughly 50 hours spread over many days/weeks(?) into writing another blog post about my experience doing a 31 day polar dipping challenge. And, despite all the realizations I came to about how perfectionism holds me back in my February post I still agonizied over sentence structure, wording and incorporating every little detail I learned in a content strategy and writing for SEO course I took. Then, the day I went to publish it, I came to discover it had somehow completely vanished from my computer (insert two hand on face emoji's). A sign perhaps from the universe to chill the flip out and just try writing for the sake of enjoying writing. I had some choice words for the universe on that day.

All that aside, when it all comes down to it, there will always be things to deal with in life and annoying setbacks are inevitable. But, if I let those things be excuses to not work towards my goals then I will live a life of underachievement and most certainly look back and say "Well shit" come the day that my body decides I die. A scenario that just the very thought of scares me into taking action. 

So here I go, attempting once again to work on my writing. Only this time, I am coming at it with a different perspective. Although I can't say I didn't fiddle with the sentence structure several times, this post was not written for SEO optimization, I only spent a handful of hours writing it instead of days and days and I am going to hit publish despite the fact that I know I could write it even better if I put in more time. Furthermore, I am not even going to get hung up on wether or not one single person reads this post. While undeniably I hope that it does get read and inspires someone, somewhere to reflect on their own goals and perhaps their self talk around them, ultimately, this blog post is for me. This is my stepping stone and this is me putting in the effort because it dawned on me this morning that 2021 is ticking away and after consulting with Google, I realized I only have 33 weeks and 3 days left to try and complete 19 now 18 blog posts!