Jessi Fillmore

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THE RESULTS

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Well, here's the news…

I got the pathology results back from the section of bowel and surrounding tissue that was removed during surgery, and NONE of the 20 lymph nodes OR blood vessels tested positive for cancer. Whoot! The type of cancer that was present in my bowel was adenocarcinoma, poorly differentiated, which means it was an aggressive form of the disease. But, as far as everyone can tell, it looks it was all removed and that I am in the clear! I am being sent to the Cancer Clinic for a second opinion but it looks like no further treatments are likely to be required. So, other than yearly checkups, I should be good.

I've been trying to type those words out for over a week now but nothing would come out. Just a blank face staring at a blank screen.

I am SUPER happy that I am cancer free and no longer have to deal with the stress associated with a serious illness. At the same time though, I am finding myself in a really weird state. Almost like a sort of shock. Now that the intense focus I had on curing myself of cancer is gone, I find myself in a state of, well, now what? Having cancer really changes everything, and I know I can't go back to doing things in the unhealthy ways that I was before. So, I find myself asking: what does life look like moving forward? What do I want life to look like now? I realized I didn't have a lot of time to think about that stuff for the past 5 months because I was so focused on getting better.

I've also found myself incredibly emotional this past week or so, needing to withdraw and be alone as I let everything sink in. I've been spending a lot of time doing what I love most when I need some time to think and that's being in the woods or in nature. While away from the hustle and bustle of everyday life, my mind seems to open up allowing my inner truths come out with greater clarity.

As far as my body goes, I am over the moon impressed with how well I am recovering. The newly stretched section of my bowl is feeling much better, and pain and discomfort I was experiencing when I had to use the bathroom is pretty much gone. Both the surgeon and my pre-op nurse assured me that I would not feel like hiking for at least 6-8 weeks post surgery but by the end of week three I was hiking one of the more strenuous trails around. I will say that I AM taking it easy though and making sure not to push my body beyond it's limits (hiking much slower than usual and covering less ground than my mind would like). I am also still restricted in how much I can lift. Every day I see improvements though and thank my body for how well it's doing.

So, as I move forward and figure out what's next for me, I really want to extend my appreciation to everyone who followed and supported me on this journey from cancer to health. I am also forever grateful for having the opportunity to do some healing at Kokolulu Farm & Cancer Retreat in Hawaii. Although I may not have cured the cancer during my short time there, I did make VAST improvements to my physical and mental well being which I believe went a long way to helping me to face and recover from surgery. I also learned valuable tools which I will be able to continue to use with me as I experience my future.

Thank you for following me on my journey through life,

Peace & Love,

Jessi

IT IS ONLY WHEN WE EMBRACE THE DARKNESS THAT WE FI...
THE SURGERY
 

Comments 8

Guest - Kim Elliott-Foster on Saturday, 02 November 2019 11:10

Wonderful news!

Wonderful news!
Guest - Lynn on Wednesday, 30 October 2019 21:14

Great news!

Great news!
Guest - Sylvia Thomson on Wednesday, 30 October 2019 00:37

Oh Jessi it's so wonderful to hear this news!

Oh Jessi it's so wonderful to hear this news!
Guest - Paula on Tuesday, 29 October 2019 21:06

So wonderful!! I am very grateful for your posts and thrilled to read this!

So wonderful!! I am very grateful for your posts and thrilled to read this!
Guest - Karin on Tuesday, 29 October 2019 17:48

We are SOOO proud of you Honey! You did it! You did the work of healing, and made the healing happen! Thank you for showing us it DOES matter when we put in the time and effort to heal ourselves! The outcome is different for each of us, but we do each have the ability to heal ourselves, whatever that may look like for us. Now, watch out world. Here comes the new Jessi, healthy, extremely talented and with so much to offer! We love you, dear Kokolulu Star!

We are SOOO proud of you Honey! You did it! You did the work of healing, and made the healing happen! Thank you for showing us it DOES matter when we put in the time and effort to heal ourselves! The outcome is different for each of us, but we do each have the ability to heal ourselves, whatever that may look like for us. Now, watch out world. Here comes the new Jessi, healthy, extremely talented and with so much to offer! We love you, dear Kokolulu Star!
Jessi on Wednesday, 06 November 2019 15:41

Thank you so much Karin for all you and Lew do. I have the upmost respect for the dedication you two have to helping others heal. It truly is admirable. Love you and miss you both xo

Thank you so much Karin for all you and Lew do. I have the upmost respect for the dedication you two have to helping others heal. It truly is admirable. Love you and miss you both xo
Guest - Lew Whitney on Tuesday, 29 October 2019 17:10

Aloha Jessi:

We are so proud of you. The entire journey is a process - every positive thing you did contributed to your wellness and positive outcome.
We love ❤️ you from the bottoms of our hearts.
We hold you in the Qifield always and know that you are on the “right path” for your happiness and good health.
Aloha Blessings to you and your Ohana (family)
YiYuanTi
HunYuanLingTong
Aloha and Peace
Lew and Karin
Kokolulu Farm and Cancer Retreats in Hawaii

Aloha Jessi: We are so proud of you. The entire journey is a process - every positive thing you did contributed to your wellness and positive outcome. We love ❤️ you from the bottoms of our hearts. We hold you in the Qifield always and know that you are on the “right path” for your happiness and good health. Aloha Blessings to you and your Ohana (family) YiYuanTi HunYuanLingTong Aloha and Peace Lew and Karin Kokolulu Farm and Cancer Retreats in Hawaii
Jessi on Wednesday, 06 November 2019 15:35

Love you back!! Thank you for all your support and guidance especially through my temper tantrums lol xo

Love you back!! Thank you for all your support and guidance especially through my temper tantrums lol xo
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